early in the a.m.

I’m drunk as a skunk and feeling fine. It’s not my fault. It’s the tablets. They’re for migraines. I only get three a month – only use three a year. They’re suppose to thin out the blood, or something. Keep the vessels from pressing against things they shouldn’t. Pain relief. All that. They cause me to hallucinate. Ever so slightly. Hallucination is soooooo much better than keep your eyes shut because it hurts when you seeeeeee.

I’ve had loads of tests run. The neurologist says he’s never seen anything like it before. “Maybe I can do more studies. Highly unusual.” Tall, dark and handsome says it’s because I’m ooooh so clever and off the charts. Tall, dark and handsome is decidingly biased.

“Yes. Very irregular,” says the specialist. “But it probably wont kill you, or else you’d be dead by now.”

I think this is a good thing. But he’s German and doesn’t speak very good English, so who can tell!!?!

I’m letting the knee go today……because the head hurts worse.

The German sees me again on the 7th. The knee doctor, next week.

I’m falling apart.