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We’ve all known chics like that – Haylie Duff’s character in Napoleon Dynamite – small town girls everyone calls beautiful because they’re just a little bit prettier than their friends.
Well, Miss Van Strudel wasn’t that girl. She wasn’t gorgeous-by-comparison. She was the real deal. The full fat. The double chocolate latte with whipped cream on top. And because he loved her, I hated her. (To be fair I’m betting I would have hated her anyway…….)
We’d go out to dinner and I’d pretend to be thin and love rocket and wonder if they sold garlic bread at the bar. He’d tell me about his work and his music and then he’d talk about the weekend and her.
He’d say things like “she’s rather mean………..but what an amazing smile”. And I’d think Sure, she has a lot of teeth, but so does my horse.
He’d ooohh and aahh over the way she looked in trench coats and piggy tails. I’d have a glass of something sparkling and want to die.
Then one day (12 December….Of course I remember) he got quiet and said this: “I do wish she were more like you, Buffy.”
I stopped eating and drinking and breathing, because what I heard was this:
“I love you. I just don’t know it yet”.
So naturally, I went and made a fool of myself……
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Pingback by not so super model - plain simple english 08.04.06 @ 10:14I really enjoy your writing and look forward to perusing your archives. Thank you kindly for stopping by my blog. 
Men are so stupid sometimes. If all he has to admire is what she looks like, then there’s a problem, isn’t there?! Sounds like he wasn’t worth your attention Buffy!!
Comment by Shellz 08.04.06 @ 14:07Oh I’d like one of those type of things to happen to me… soon… please?
Comment by Bre 08.04.06 @ 15:53Oh man! I don’t want to wait for another day to get the rest of this! 
I’ve done that – not sure what you did – but i know what i did and the consequences were not only brutally humiliating – but a true lesson learned. I tread lightly now – the emotional impact is far less
can NOT wait to hear what you did!! stories of unrequited love are the best, and i have quite a few stored up in my reservoir of life. no matter how many times you go out on a limb and it gets broken, you still want to do it again and again. wouldn’t that “he’s just not that into you” guy love to get his hands on us!
Comment by Lesli 08.06.06 @ 17:43Hi Buffy,
Thanks for stopping by, interesting writing! I’ll be stopping back
Sarah
[...] I stopped eating and drinking and breathing, because what I heard was this: “I love you. I just don’t know it yetâ€. So naturally, I went and made a fool of myself…… [...]
Pingback by not so super model pt.3 - plain simple english 08.07.06 @ 13:13Isn’t it amazing how men can say one thing and we hear another. Don’t worry, I heard the exact same thing you did.
Comment by Liz 08.08.06 @ 13:04once upon a time, i thought i heard him say “i love you. i just don’t know it yet.” turns out, that’s just what i was hoping he said. what he really said was, “i don’t love you. you just won’t accept that yet.” i swear, they speak different languages sometimes!
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